Oxygen Cherry - Pencil Flying With Quills
About Avis
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Hi! I actually don't know what to say, despite wanting to say something here. I feel like whatever it is I say, that's how I am defining myself. Do I talk about my hobbies? Do I just give just the base facts? I have a website mostly because I just... Like to talk. I don't consider myself a chatty person, but I can be, and when I have thoughts about things I can't help but want to share them. I also really hate social media though and sometimes I don't want to bother my friends with every little thing going on in my head. Maybe you can also say I have an obsession with personalizing things, since I will spend an hour before bed every night working on my hobonichi for that day hahaha. Thus, a site is born. :)

Maybe I should explain what the title means. I came up with it kind of... On a whim, when I made this site, but it's grown on me a lot actually. I've applied a bird motif to myself for a few years now and it comes from my yearning for "freedom." Whether that's freedom from my parents, the freedom to be comfortable in my own skin, or freedom from sin and my mental illnesses. So, that's the "flying" part, what's up with the quills?

I like to write. :) Well, a lot of people like to say that and I don't think a lot of people are good writers. That's rude of me to say but honestly... I feel like it's a societal trend for writers and digital artist's to think you're a lot better than you actually are. I have a lot of controversial thoughts on that, so maybe I'll make a blog post about it sometime. Anyway, though, I don't think I'm a good writer. The best way to become a better writer is to read a lot. I've read more (and better) books than most people my age since I go to a classical school (I'll write book reviews somewhere, sometime) but I still have a hard time reading when no one is telling me to read for work. So... I don't know, I'll post some of my more "professional"(?) writing projects here. The only one available is my thesis, which is for school, but still.

Some Basic Shtuff
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Maybe I should have put this first, but here is some of the basic stuff about me:

    I LOVE stationary. Pens, paper, washi tape, wax seals, stickers :3<

    My favourite palettes typically include greys, pinks, and creams. Lately I've also been a bit obsessed with gold. :3<

    I'm a Virgo and Rooster (Chinese Zodiac)

    My migraines are always extremely light sensitive and certain noise pitches make me unreasonably angry lol

    I don't like to watch movies unless I know it's good and I feel too stressed to turn on shows unless someone else is already playing it. That being said, I've watched a wide variety things, including a lot of South-East Asian horrors, 12 Angry Men, The Night of the Walking Dead, and a collection of Westerns. And more. My favourite general genres are romance and horror.

    I'm an extremely messy person but I also stress clean. I like to think that I have a .... "Messy Chic" type personal style. I think that just means I'm a loser who manages to clean up well.

    I'm an insane chatterbox sometimes. Sometimes I'll ghost people for months up to a year. I consider both these things bad traits but if you're gonna talk to me, you should probably know about that. ;;^-^

Faith
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Now for the most essential thing about myself. :) Maybe this also should go at the top. I don't know, bear with me. I'm a Christian and I've been raised in a Christian household all my life, though I consider myself to be born-again based on how I came to truly desire God and give myself to Him. I affirm the Nicene Creed as my statement of faith. I've gone through a lot to get to this point in my life and I don't feel like telling you any of the details of that. What I will say though, is that I am currently struggling with how to interpret God's word. A lot of that ties into Freewill vs. Predestination, the Creation story as a "true myth" vs. a more scientific understanding of it and lots of other, seemingly little things which end up affecting the whole stonewall of your faith. You get what I'm saying?

It feels like I'm a lone survivor

Forgotten in a dark and deadly world

And on my own I walk alone

To see the sun again I'd give anything

But life demands a final chapter

A story that we all must leave behind

It's do or die, and this is mine

The anthem of a bird with a broken wing

~ Bird With a Broken Wing, Owl City