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Idk what to say, so just !!!!!!
The 3rd quarter of school is at it's end for me though. I started messing around with neocities again, after having forgotten about it tbh, because the 3rd quarter is always extremely rough. It was mostly a distraction from the classes I couldn't force myself to stay awake for anymore (don't worry I'm doing well in school still :P) and woah- I did a lot of things I wasn't expecting to do! Such as that webring mainly, which I said I would make like. a year prior? XD Thank you to Moheb in particular who helped me set it up ~
Anyway, I'm not going anywhere, but I will be a lot more silent again. I'll probably pitter around doing things still, like right now I'm trying to get project "samples" up before Sunday since I want to delete all the things that I had previously published those ideas on. But, with the 4th quarter comes the last ounces of my attention span and I need to use it to knock my last year out of the park lol. It's just two months now and I KNOW I can be organized and have my silly head clear and be motivated... I just need to pick it up again. Which unfortunately for my chronically online brain diet, means I need to touch grass. XD
Actually it feels really weird to be writing this now. When I had previously forgotten about my neocities I would not have written anything like this lol;;;; what are all you people doing here? Aren't I kind of annoying? It actually feels a little conceited because like, who cares whether or not I'm gonna be "active" on my own website BUT it's 2 AM and I rarely have the sense to listen to that instinct at 2 AM! And if you do find me annoying then... Hello? That wasn't sarcastic or anything, hello, hi, I hope you're doing well.
Okay maybe it was a bit cheeky.
Weirdly enough though, starting to mess with my website again actually did help me. It was a long period where I didn't feel like reading my Bible, I actually felt a little sick just looking at it because ~problems~ but having the idea to write down my thoughts in a digital notebook helped me want to crack it open, even if maybe just because the prospect of messing with HTML afterwards made me excited. Maybe not the best reason to start reading again but it broke the ice at least and, after literally two years of trying to get through Numbers, I'm finally almost done. :)
So yeah! A lot of things are bad but a lot of things are also exciting and I finally feel motivated enough to start taking care of myself again, focusing hard on the things that need that focus, and doing well. I hope everyone has a good two months! Or more, depending on how things go once school ends! yewheeee
AH and if you're someone who I haven't emailed back yet SORRY - I haven't forgotten and I don't hate you I'm just hdagfdhla I will do that soon and I hope you're doing well!! Also, I'll still be checking the form for any new webring applicants so don't worry about me ignoring that for 2 months. :3
Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.
My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.
He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound’s the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.
The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep. - Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening, Robert Frost
Critical -
Almost done/In the works -
Complete -
And when you wake up on your own
Look around you 'cause you're not alone
Let your hopes go and they'll survive
'Cause this is the future and you are alive
You're headed home,
You're headed home
~ This is the Future, Owl City